If only the reasons for the little outburst were that easy, or less heart-wrenching. Jyn doesn't exactly enjoy dredging up those memories, both from childhood and from very recently before her arrival in Cadelle, but here they are, right out in the open.

But before she can indulge in another round of internal self-flagellation, he's sharing a very similar story and she's torn between hurting for Derek and his losses the same way that she hurts for her own, and feeling upset and angry that someone else knows exactly how she feels, because this - this, she wouldn't wish on anyone. "Because there's always an ulterior motive", she replies, nodding her understanding, her agreement. "There's always a price to pay, even for the smallest gestures. And it's easier to depend on yourself rather than wonder what price you'll have to pay for accepting that assistance."

Jyn hates that he understands. But at the same time, she's selfishly grateful for the very same thing. Maybe in this, she doesn't have to feel quite so alone anymore.

And while she would like very much not to continue this line of conversation, she can't bite back the desire to offer - "I'm sorry. For your loss. For being a pain in your ass - and I know that I am. For all of this - ", she says, her gesture meant to encompass the entire circumstance they've found themselves in. "But I still think I'm glad to have met you, anyway."