Baby's only telling Lydia exactly what she's been trying to tell herself all this time, however unsuccessfully. It's nice to hear it from someone else, though, admittedly. Lydia doesn't talk about Allison much, if at all, so this whole conversation is kind of foreign to her. Not in a bad way, but just generally speaking.
His reaction isn't actually very surprising. It's hard to explain what she is and what she can do without getting a similar reaction. Spencer had been a bit of an anomaly, she thinks, considering he was more fascinated with the science of it than most people would've been. She gives Baby an apologetic look; one that tells him she knows it's a lot to take in and she's sorry.
"It was," she admits. "It was really awful back then when I didn't know how to use it. Now, I know better. Now, I can use it to help people. But back then? Yeah, it was pretty awful," she agrees with a small frown. "I try not to take responsibility for everyone, but...well. It's just harder to shrug it off when it's Allison. She was my best friend. ...she was my first best friend," she tells him. The truth is, Lydia had been a Queen Bee, so she'd been popular, but she'd never had a best friend until Allison had come around. She'd mainly had acquaintances or boyfriends. Allison helped Lydia grow into the person she is now and she's sure any of the people she's met here so far wouldn't like her much at all if she was still her old self. So knowing that she potentially could've saved her friend, it's hard not to hold herself accountable for her shortcoming.
But being here is important. She's here to get her wish, a wish that would make Beacon Hills safe again; one she's wishing because if she can't save Allison, maybe she can save everyone else and then Allison won't have died for nothing. "It's getting easier over time. But that's probably enough about me..."
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His reaction isn't actually very surprising. It's hard to explain what she is and what she can do without getting a similar reaction. Spencer had been a bit of an anomaly, she thinks, considering he was more fascinated with the science of it than most people would've been. She gives Baby an apologetic look; one that tells him she knows it's a lot to take in and she's sorry.
"It was," she admits. "It was really awful back then when I didn't know how to use it. Now, I know better. Now, I can use it to help people. But back then? Yeah, it was pretty awful," she agrees with a small frown. "I try not to take responsibility for everyone, but...well. It's just harder to shrug it off when it's Allison. She was my best friend. ...she was my first best friend," she tells him. The truth is, Lydia had been a Queen Bee, so she'd been popular, but she'd never had a best friend until Allison had come around. She'd mainly had acquaintances or boyfriends. Allison helped Lydia grow into the person she is now and she's sure any of the people she's met here so far wouldn't like her much at all if she was still her old self. So knowing that she potentially could've saved her friend, it's hard not to hold herself accountable for her shortcoming.
But being here is important. She's here to get her wish, a wish that would make Beacon Hills safe again; one she's wishing because if she can't save Allison, maybe she can save everyone else and then Allison won't have died for nothing. "It's getting easier over time. But that's probably enough about me..."